Set him free

Last April 4, I decided to break up with my boyfriend. After our one year anniversary last March 25 I decided to quit. The love is still their but; the commitment is not in the relationship anymore. I go out with another man. I do not know with my ex-boyfriend since we are in a long distance relationship. But I have women instinct that he never go out with other girls because I know how much he loves me. That is made my ego boast! I go out with someone, for just a friendly date? Okay I admit at first, of coarse I like the guy! My ex-boyfriend keeps on courting me, asking me to fix our ended affair. I just set Him aside because somehow I know he is still there for me whatever happens. Days, weeks and months past my date and I decided to be friends, since we have different views in life. I cannot breathe whenever He is around. I always got pressure whenever He asked me, what to eat, where to go? Every time I am with Him, I just cannot be me. I do not know. I cannot express what I wanted to say every time I am vexed with him. I always feel discontentment, I am not happy at all. I tried to be happy whenever His is around. .He do not know all this kind a hiding myself. Anyway he is a good person. It is just that only KELVIN REY PALMYRA makes me feel happy! He always makes me as the real GRACE all the time. With my boyfriend I easily express whatever in my minds. If I am angry I can shout at him. I can say my no and Yes! See the difference when I am with my date and with my boyfriend? So after the realization and all the craziness I had been. I text my boyfriend, ops I forgot my ex-boyfriend! What a sad love life I had a now. I asked his forgiveness and I confessed my sins and lies. I told Him what happened about me and my date. Of coarse he is really mad at me! I remember He cried that time he call me on the phone. Asking why I did that bullshit thing! Yes that bullshit! That was my entire fault. I am so stupid to let the man who I know, from the very start is the one who makes me HAPPY! I courted Him; yes I am the one who courted Him this time. Anyway courting a guy, whom you know deserve to be courted, is not a big deal. I just did what I think was right. I gave Him time to think. But He chooses to leave me now. I respect the decisions even though my happiness relies on that. I cry, cry and cry that night. Setting him free means I do not owe Him no more. He deserves someone else. How pathetic my life is!